Tell HIM I Love Him
Hey Sunnies,
I hope this year has been treating you with kindness so far; and if not, I hope you are at least being kind to yourself. This year has been eventful to say the least. I spent the first 21 days fasting, the next few days in Jamaica with my family, only to come back for 48 hours to wash my clothes, re-pack, and head to Sundance Film Festival for 10 days. I came home just in time for Super Bowl weekend, then Valentines Day weekend, and now it is time to prepare for the lenten season. Whew! I’m tired just thinking about it. Well, this year for Valentines Day, it just felt so different.
I felt so overwhelmed with God’s love this year. Valentines Day is my only brother’s birthday, so growing up, it was naturally one of my favorite days of the year. School was fun because we would pass out valentines to all of our classmates, and yes I took it very seriously. I would meticulously write each of my classmates names on the small cardboard squares and attach them to my favorite candies. Then, I would usually come home to some kind of valentines day bag of candies from my grandma and my parents. Then, to top it off, we would do something fun like the movies, skating, laser tag, or even the arcade for my brother’s birthday. It was great! When I got to high school, being the theater kid that I am, I would bounce around from classroom to classroom singing sweet-o-grams—basically students could pay $2-$5 to have a rose, candy, and a song delivered to their sweet love’s classroom. We spent months coming up with jingles based on popular songs. I prepared my outfit to be the absolute cutest. I mean it was honestly a Cass Tech holiday. Then when I got to college, Valentines Day was a time for the gworls!! We would have galentines day parties, darties, sleepovers, brunches, we truly ran it up.
After I graduated from college and I found myself in my first serious relationship, Valentines Day was romantic. We thought about it for months, sometimes celebrating with trips or expensive dinners. It was fun! Then, the last few years, living in NY, I’ve really tried to focus on self-love on Valentines Day. I would take myself to drinks, or make myself a good dinner, or get my nails done, something that just screamed I can ice myself out. But this year, THIS YEAR, was the first year I felt absolutely captivated by God’s love.
Tell Him by Lauryn Hill played over and over as I was just crying in the shower. I don’t know who she wrote that song to. I was listening to Ms. Lauryn Hill’s album because my girl Doechii joined the club of black women, well the trio—Lauryn Hill and Cardi B, who have won the Grammy for Best Rap Album. (I’m so proud of her, ahhhhhhhh!) Anyway, I was listening to the album and when this song came on, I just started crying. God is so good!! And His love for us, will always leave me speechless.
[Verse 1]
Let me be patient, let me be kind
Make me unselfish without being blind
Though I may suffer, I'll envy it not
And endure what comes
'Cause he's all that I got tell him
[Verse 2]
Now I may have faith to make mountains fall
But if I lack love, then I am nothin' at all
I can give away everything I possess
But left without love then I have no happiness
I know I'm imperfect, and not without sin
But now that I'm older, all childish things end
And tell him
1 Corinthians 13
God I love you! And I thank you! So sunnies, if you talk to God after reading this—tell Him I love Him. And I pray you find the courage to realize all the love that is present in your own life.
All of my love,
Mikaela Amira
